Hey peepos..
Ohwell, today, i was woken up by this extraordinary $%^&*( feeling. Omg, damn scary. Want to know more? hahaha. And I am damn excited and curious about it. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Back to my day. Two more days before my mother toungue paper, And i have yet to touch my chinese books, I think i need last minute revision to absorb everything in. But well, I am going to have a studies marathon in school, rushing and squeezing everything into my brain. Ohya, and two of our class phones had been stolen. Thus, the whole class will be banned from bringing phone for the whole of term two.wth.

Ok, I am too lazy to continue.

And, I hope is you

Well, Since I did not go to school today, shall do this facebook thingy before I go and mug.

50 Little Secrets,
Be honest no matter what :D

01. Who was your last text from?
My mommy

02. Where was your default picture taken?
On the boat.

03. Your relationship status?
Single and Unavailable :D

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
I think so?

05. What is your current mood?
Sianzz

06. How many siblings do you have?
An older brother

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Brian

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
Beach? Snow?

09. Have a crazy side?
If you think that's crazy, than it's crazy lor.

10. Ever had a near death experience?
Yes, I thought I am gonna leave this world forever.

11. Something you do a lot?
Slack

12. Angry at anyone?
Nope

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Something :D

14. When was the last time you cried?
When I first saw the world.Haha. like real-.-

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yes,

16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Upcoming matches

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Forgotten.

18. What is your favorite song?
Always change. Currently, kiss the rain- yiruma

19. What are you doing right now?
doing this thing-.-

20. Who do you trust right now?
Myself :D

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Sch book shop

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
No!

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
Janice? Don't know lah

24. Describe your life in one word?
Screwed

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
momoren

26. What should you be doing right now?
MUGGING FOR MY CHINESE, FINISHING MY DNT JOURNAL, MATHS ASSESMENT

27. What are you listening to?
Kiss the rain- yiruma

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
XIAOFEI. she force me to. haha. just joking

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
JESSIE FOO MEI XIN

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
nope.

31. What is your natural hair color?
black? dark brown? blue? orange?

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
My mum?

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
heehee..

34. What do you hear?
Sound of cars from KJE, songs

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
straight

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
nope.

37. Do you have a best friend?
YES.

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
nope.

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Yes.

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yes, in the bus, rushing for match.

41. Are you happy with life right now?
Not really, still have to live with it :D

42. Are you currently jealous?
YES. dont tell you why

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
no jewel

44. What were you doing on friday night?
watching tv, complaining how tired I am

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes.

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I don't know

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
yes. myself. For not studying now

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
My ankle

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
11.30. Got star awards mah,

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Nope


Ok, bye, time for mugging. If you want to do the survey, just do :D

I think today is a that's worth blogging.

Ok, I was sooo nervous the night before, reflecting what xiaofei had told me, and told us and it's really effective. And I just kept thinking non-stop that I can't sleep well and kept having tummy ache. At first, I woke up at 5am than I woke up at 6.30, deciding not to continue sleeping. I woke up in sweat even when my air-con is on at 23 degrees. I don't understand why too.

Did not have any appeitite before the game. So I just ate two pieces of bread that I bought from home. And I really regretted not sleeping well and not eating enough. Because it affected my game like siao ding dong. First, my eyes can't be focus due to the lack of sleep. Second, I kept having tummy ache because my tummy is so empty. So I played like shit this time, and congratulation to me for having 4 foul. HOWEVER. the last foul... ok, I dont want to repeat myself again.

After match, rest for the first quarter, than I ran up to the spectators corner and cheer together with the sec twos. And by the end of the last quarter, I ran down for prize presentation and drop dead. But that's what I like about ccac, I don't mind using all my energy cos it's all worth it afterall. :D

CAN YOU IMAGINE SURVIVING FOR THE WHOLE DAY WITH SO MANY TIRING THINGS WITH JUST TWO BREAD? ahh, i totally screwed myself on this match. But well, I gotta reflect and learn something from this match. HAHA.

only if I have a choice
only if it's possible
only if...

Well, I think that I am spending sooooo much time sitting infront of the computer and slacking where the time can be taken to do some revisions and my projects that are incomplete. I just kept telling myself that there's still other days to finish my projects. However, exams are like a week ahead and my mind is just still not at a studying mood. Just kept thinking of our semis and end off this zone smoothly. I think my mind will only be put into studies after my zonal. By that time, it's too late already lor. Congrats to me for failing my literature three times in a row. But I did have improvement of 2 marks ok!Aiya, who cares, I also not taking literature next year. Muahaha, although I know every subjects do count lah. I think I just wasted 5 mins of my life typing senseless things. But there's so many things I have in mind that are untyp-able. And I think i just wasted one minute of other people's life to erad my senseless post. Ok bye

NONSENSE

Just received a good/bad news yesterday when I reached home. Know what? I am moving house-.- YES AGAIN. When I stay in this house for 1 year, 7 months and 5 days! Shall keep the secret on where I am moving first. And I really love love love living in my current home.

They did told me that I am moving house. BUT THEY TELL ME IN MAYBE 6-7 YEARS TIME. Now I know, I will be moving in 6-7 months time! Wth! I must treasure my time I have left here man! So what's the good point and bad point?

Bad:
- I have to walk a super long distance to the nearest bus stop AND WHAT IF IT RAINS !?
- I won't be able to meet up with peepos at cck mrt and take the train to school together
- I won't be able to feel hungry and just go down lot one to grab a bite.
- I won't be able to wake up late and just easily walk a short distance and take a transport and go to school.
- I won't be able to reach home late
- I won't be able to sit at the edge of my window and look down 6 floor and imagine what if I lend on the floor like roti prata.
- I won't be able to go down the jacuzzi so often.( when i dont do that often though)
- I won't be able to have late night supper at sunshine place frequently
- I won't be able to go slack with them till late late.
DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

Good:
- I will have a bigger room
- I may be able to own a pool table
- I may be able to put a drum set in my room
- I can gaze out to look at the stars in the balcony
- I can have hell lotsssss of fun with myself when I am home alone
- I can have birthday party with no security guards chasing me away
- I will have a tiny balcony just outside my room
- I will not be able to hear my bro sings while bathing
- I will be able to cycle more frequently
- I don't have to take a lift
- I can re design my room
- I can paint the colour I want in my room
- I can have a dog.(althought I am afraid of one)
- I won't feel so bored at home.

Ok, I shall look on the bright side and sacrifice my sleep to go to school earlier. And that jessie foo actually thinks that i should transfer school to make myself more convenient. Aiya, she fake fake only lah.
She she be de me one.

And I damnnnnnnnnnn need a laptop/computer.
Actually, till now, I still don't want to move house.
It's gonna be so inconvenience-.-

Ahhhh.. My hair is getting thicker and thicker and it's getting out of shape. I feel like changing a new hairstyle but other hairstyles don't suits as much as my current hair. And as for being such a person who needs sleep than anything else has to wake up early, bathe, put contact lens, blow hair, tie hair, wear socks and leave the house. If I don't have to blow my hair and tie it, I can put 10 mins more to my beautiful sleep. So.. I decided to shave my hair BOTAK ! siao eh, just joking. I have never thought of being a nun man.

But well, I have been thinking for a long time if I should cut short hair. Not that kind of short lah, like RUI EN kind of short hair. wooooo~~~ So as to keep up with my dao-ness. HAHA. ohya, I said i want to be daoooooooo. But till now, i am not dao -.- whatever.

ok, back to topic. If i were to cut that hairstyle, and want to grow back long hair, it will take forever and ever and ever and ever lor. And short hair may not suit my hair lor.

AND THE WEATHER NOW IS DAMN HOT LOR, I WANT GO SWIMMING!!

I want to suntann!!

Happy birthday to my FEI MAO(fat cat)

14th years old, older than me already.Today school was quite tired but fun. I was told to meet my project group mates at 7am to do our rehearsel for the presentation. However, we did not rehearse. So yeah, my day started. Had art and was doing our project and Mdm kharmila was doing her template for her SYF make up. So she was like "eh come, let me try" than she put the template on my forehead and start painting. It's black somemore. So it somehow darken my eyebrow!During recess, we sang birthday song to my pet jessie foo. Shy shy wor run away. But we manage to capture her. After school had this sec 3 subject combination talk. Than we thought that jessie can't go for b girls match so we ran up to her and gave her, her long awaiting fox berms. OF course she was like so happy and hug me and diane. Muahaha. Rush down to watch b girls match. Took cab down with yanna nad pearlyn. And they like their face so much and scare me when I saw this photo on my phone.

B girls lost. It's like so heart wrenching to see you all fight until like mad and yet lost the match. It's over. No point thinking about it. You all had done your best already. Cheers!

Ohya, I did this prank on jessie. I told her that I will be migrating to australia to study for two years and will leave this november. My intention was to make her cry and be so mad and make this card a unforgettable one! So she went back and double check with me.

[c=50]Jessie[/c] says:
PAMELAAAAAAAAAA
Pamela says:
what!
[c=50]Jessie[/c] says:
i dont believe you
Pamela says:
what?
[c=50]Jessie[/c] says:
th card ............
Pamela says:
hmm.. I am sorry dear.
i gotta tell you on your birthday
[c=50]Jessie[/c] says:
dont lieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Pamela says:
it's ok,i know it's hard to believe at the beginning. but it's better that i tell you now than to leave without a word
i have yet told the team. till nationals than i tell bah
[c=50]Jessie[/c] says:
really ahhhhhhhhhhh
you serious ? very serious ?
Pamela says:
hai.. i know you wont believe. like you say, i am never serious. but.. not joking this time. sorry
are you crying?

*Jessie ignores*
Few minutes later... ...

Pamela says:
- jessie i got something more serious to tell you.
- my acting are so good that i can go mediacorp already.
-ehhhhhhhhhhhhh. i was just testing you, now i know how much i meant to you
-I AM SO TOUCHED !
- cos i am number o.5 in your heart !!!
Jessie says:
-!@#$%^&*()_+
-!@#$%^&*()_+
-!@#$%^&*()_+
Pamela says:
-muahahahaha
Jessie says:
-!@#$%$^^%&*(__
Pamela says:
-you got cry anot?
Jessie says:
-@#@!$%$@^$@^$
-yes sob sob
Pamela says:
-OMG !!
Jessie says:
-i cry because i wasted my messages
Pamela says:
-YES ! I WON !! THAT'S MY INTENTION
-NAH, DONT LIE
Jessie says:
REPLYING YOUR MESSAGE!
Pamela says:
-YOU MEAN YOU WANTED TO WRITE ME A CARD !?
-HAHAHAHAHA
-I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING
Jessie says:
-you ccb

Cheers for mee ! MISSION ACCOMPLISH !

Erique Iglesias- Hero

Would you dance,If
I asked you to dance?
Would you run,
And never look back?
Would you cry,
If you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?


Would you tremble,
If I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die,
For the one you love?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear,
That youll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
Would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I dont care...
Youre here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just wanna to hold you.
I just wanna to hold you.
Oh yeah.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I dont care...
Youre here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you, forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

Happy birthday to NICOLETTE and CHIA BIRU!
Wee~ one year older le worzxs.
Nicolette officially 13
Biru can watch NC16 le worzxs. Haha..

Ohman, I so desperately wanted to post just now. But now, I am too lazy to post.

ok, byee. haha

It's always the fact that hurts the most

Wee, I just came back and my eyes are shutting down. But I can't sleep, I ate a 3 dollar worth of carrot cake with extra eggs. Now my stomach is so full.

I had this very stupid dream this morning. I was dreaming that my mum wanted to buy a white piano. So we went to a shop and the sales person approach me asking me what do my mum want to buy piano or organ. Than.. just nice, my mum came into my room to wake me up and I almost ask my mother want buy piano or organ.

Woke up at 9.45 today and had tuition. Start watching tv and at around 2 plus, went to lot one to by KFC back home and eat. Than start working on my art project and done some of my homework. At around 6.30, went down 514 to look for Olivia, was suppose to play ball with yanna, jessie, diane and pearlyn at 7pm. However, yanna and jessie came at around 7.30. Pearlyn and diane came around 9 plus. So yah, had sooooooooo much fun playing and laughing like mad with them.

Around 10.45, we left the court and send yanna home. Than we walk to 302 to tapao food and we went to the fitness corner to slack. Chatted about lots of stuffs. Like, black cat, ghost, dogs, etc. Got back home and I am so tired.


I have a memory to erase
A person to forget.
It's hard,
I will take things naturally.
Everything is like so bad now.
detest detest detest.
Be it, people detest me
or I detest people.
Ah, whatever. I am tired.

Hey, I am too lazy to blog. Shall share with you my conver with my brother on msn. Yes, same house, use msn communicate. that's how we are :D nah, just joking. Anti- bhbness!

Ok, to cut the long conver short.
I was asking my brother if he can send me three song. Than he don't want put in his phone than send me.


Pamela says:
for the sake of your pretty sis put in your hp and send me lah

ßRIAN™ whiteY-chAn'"' says:
nnoo

Pamela says:
pretty leh ^^ me

ßRIAN™ whiteY-chAn'"' says:
-orh
-i hear no evil

Pamela says:
-no evil. it's amulet

ßRIAN™ whiteY-chAn'"' says:
-WAAA
-ur friends really is bad influence

Pamela says:
-no lah, i influence them
-you influence me one lo ! still say
-pls lah. your sis so cute
-you she de let her wait for the song meh

ßRIAN™ whiteY-chAn'"' says:
-my hp no space la
-and i more adorable
-my club NBA leh

Pamela says:
* Vomiting face

ßRIAN™ whiteY-chAn'"' says:
-u can fight mei

Pamela says:
-na bei association
-HAHAH

ßRIAN™ whiteY-chAn'"' says:
Natural Born Adorable

Pamela says:
just joking !

ßRIAN™ whiteY-chAn'"' says:
u go hell

Pamela says:
hahahaha
that's UGH

Alright, that's lame. bye

Labels: I can't accept the fact in everything. hai..

RANDOM

ohman, wtf had happen to this world.

Believe it or not.

Play safe better

But that's just so unfair.

Perhaps this is just the beginning of my retribution

Ah.. Can my leg please recover faster!?

It's making my days so uncomfortable. Firstly, I will take 15 minutes to walk from my home to the MRT station when i usually took less than 10 mins. Secondly, I am walking like a snail and I hate climbing stairs. Thirdly, the brownish medicine kept staining my bedsheet. LASTLY,

IT STINKS!

The smell makes me want to poo man. And I am going to miss training the whole week just because of it. It's just one slight mistake and cause like a week of suffering. I know there are people worst than me who fractured the whole leg when mine is just a minor sprain. But competition is in less than 10 days time and my leg is not recovering as fast as expected. Luckily, I have a lovely grandmother who made some tonics as bitter as my leg. Hope I can walk better tomorrow.

One more thing, I have a gigantic ulcer on my lips. It looks as if a violent kisser actually bit my lips. It hurts like dont know what and I look like some octopus with swllen lips lor. Plus two ulcer on my toungue. AND A BIG GREEN BRUISE ON MY LEFT CHEEK! And it somehow un-shape my face, it looks slightly unbalance. Now i look more like an alien. uhhuh.

Pearlyn, I never forget your birthday lah. Happy belated birthday! 14th already ah, streaming year, work hard hor.

Now, I have a decision to make.

Congratulation Pamela, you just twisted your ankle two weeks before the west zone starts.

Today, nana, yanna and jessie went to my house to watch chucky. Had some sort of cat fight and i kick, jessie flew to the ground and the next thing i know i am so dead. After that went to meet faith and co at bangkit basketball court. So we changed into our shoes, and started warming up. And when I was getting a rebound, I landed on jianming's leg and my ankle just start twisting to the left, to the right. And I started hitting the ground. I can't tell myself to get up and start jumping it hurts like shit.

I am super scared that I may not be able to jump during west zone. How suay, west zone two weeks and i sprain my ankle. I just feel like crying man, What if my leg dont get well in two weeks? What if my leg made me unable to jump ball? What if what if what if what iF.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Damn it. I am sorry team.

My holidays are simple so duper boring and hectic. Five days of friendly plus very tiring training. On monday, we vs Dunman. Tuesday mad cow training. Wednesday we vs manjusri. Today, we vs Deyi and tomorrow vs raffles, So tiring. Just two more weeks and my zonal is gonna start, I am seriously very worried.

And I need a full body massage now. My brain is so stress with all my so many undone homework. My neck is aching, i accidentally slept the whole night on my bolster instead of my pillow. My arm is aching with that yellow posoinous ball. My back is aching and it's killing me. My thighs just surrendered to me. My knee is falling apart. My ankle is gonna give me another problem soon. AHHHHH.. So tiring.

I realise that the older i grow, the lamer I get. It's either my level of lameness increase or the people around me became more not lame anymore or I am all along lame and people are just tolerating. Ok, whatever. I shall be some very asshole freak who just don't lame around. Perhaps keeping quiet is the best solution lah.

Ok, whatever bye

Alright, just ignore my previous post. Just venting my anger. Maybe I am just so useless.. Instead of finding a solution and never give up, i chose to sit behind the computer and start venting my anger and make myself feel miserable. I am sorry that I did not stand up and be confident to talk to the whole team together with the other sec twos.

Everything is back to normal and the 6 of the sec twos are going to work hand in hand to help this team go all the way to the nationals top four. COME ON C GIRLS, WE CAN DO IT!. We are not going to make this ussbbg be seperated again, And there's no such thing call 'MYSELF' in ussbbg. We are a whole! No matter if you are a sec 1 or a sec 2 we are still a team and there'll not be any cold wall in between us!

cause we a team,

cause we are a whole

cause i love ussbbg

cause all of you love ussbbg.

Believe in yourself, believe in this team, we are going to wear our jersey all the way to the top. Read properly already?

CAUSE WE ARE A TEAM CAUSE WE ARE USSBBG! understand !!

Nana: Thanks for bringing us back together, and sacrifice your bbq and spend your time to talk things out for us today. Although you are so fierce or criticise me sometimes, i understand that you are trying to make me learn to not be so irritating sometimes. Whatever you said seriously do wake me up and know what's the right thing to do at the right time. You never fail to guide us well in c div last year. And this year, you never forget about us and continue helping us when we are already seniors in the c div team. Although you scold me the most, but i still love nana.

Xiaofei: Thanks for helping us talk to the sec ones and brining the c div back. Maybe this is a batch that's hard to control or we are not strong enough to control them. Although you have your own O level, your own b div and your personal stuffs to settle, you never even forget about us. We are really touched by that. But felt guilty at the same time for bringing this problem to you. You sacrifices so much and I just thought of giving up on this whole team. I am really sorry. USSBBG will never ever break up again, i promise. No matter what happen, No one is gonna be neglected. No matter how irritating you find me, I still love Xiaofei.

Both: You two are the best captain I have ever seen.

Diane & Jessie: From now, no one is allowed to interfere into our friendship and we are not going to let a single guy or whoever to break us up again. Cause It's a three person story, And everyone plays a part of it.

We cry because we treasure this friendship

We cry because we want to be back again

We cry because we are sorry

We cry because we love.

That's the threesome

HAPPY BELATED FLY MOLLY XAVERIA MO(MOK) XIAOFEI

weee~ today is the don't know how many 13th friday. Some very suay thing that I heard:
First, I tried throwing the ball to hit the ceiling and after it hit the ceiling, it hit DIRECTLY on poor janice.
Secondly, heard from racheal that some netball girls, drank sweetalk inside the MRT station and was fine $500 dollars.
Thirdly, chased yelicia and I missed a step and my ankle just twist to the left.

SUPER SUAY LAH.

Had a workshop in the morning and it's call 'Find your diamond' same class as janice. And the first thing the coaches introduce us the workshop, Janice was like " Where's the diamond ah?"

Well, the workshop is very good. It gave us confidence and motivated us. The examples are so touching. Want to cry already. "Even if you are left with nothing, you must still love yourself and believe in yourself" One example is,

There's a man who's lock in the refrigerator box and all his other collegues had already gone home. And he just kept thinking that he is going to get frozen to death and he is going to die. He just kept telling himself that he is going to die.
Ther next day, the police open the refrigerator and found him dead inside. It is said that he is frozen to death. But.. the very amazing thing the police found out was... the air-con was NOT EVEN ON!.

After that we have some cyber addiction and cyber bullying talk. Quite boring though. However some stories are rather interesting. Went back class and got back my report slip. I never fail anything! But deprove alot lah. L1R4 14 already. R5 no need say already lah. Nvm, will work harder for mid year.

After that had training FROM 1.50-5.00 ok ! crazy already. After that celebrated Xiaofei's birthday. Of course got cake fight and the cake IS SUPER creamy lor! Confirm have pimples coming out already. HAIYA !
Went mac to eat, ate fries only lah. And we are like making a hell lot of noise. BECAUSE OF THAT PEARLYN LAH ! keep laughing and pulling my pants, and the mac auntie was like "after you eat finish can you leave? there's other customer need the seat." AND IT'S LIKE "halo, aren't we customer too? and the table beside us,( olivia,xiaofei,yelicia,lishan) is still eating and we are like somehow talking to them and she chase us out. Whatever.

Went lot one look for mother and ate at some hong kong cafe place. Can save money mah. Than went to look for my long wanting black plain hoodie. AND.. I went to bosini and saw the reversable hoodie, super nice lor ! the material is good, not very thick and it's so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~ and guess what? after discount $80 dollars hor. mai siao siao. I AM GOING TO SAVE UP AND BRING IT HOME ! i want i want i want lah. HAHA.

Not a good month, march don't rock, it started off with so many unhappiness.
I lost my badge for the THIRD day!

B girls lost today, it's damn close. But the last minute was magical, all of you did your best. Good luck for nationals, nothing is impossible:D
Well, it's really close today, it's so heart wrenching to see you girls cry. Ohman, i am so afraid of my zonals now. ahhh..


Should I continue? or should I just forget about it?
hai..

I am angry with myself
I am irritated with myself
I am annoying myself
I am very disappointed in myself

Ahhhhh.. I just don't feel right, I dont feel the sense of belonging. I worked like mad on my studies and what the shit did I get? damn freaking bad results? noobshit. best subject, CHINESE. with the pathetic score of 62.2. Study like mad cow for history. end up what shit? 50% alright! argh! maths? all the way from 10th storey building drop down to Basement 1 ! I am so unhappy !

I WANNA SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Second day I lose my badge, I STILL CAN'T FIND MY BADGE !
bad results,
bad attitude,
bad character.


Ahhhhhhhhhhh.. I am losing everything and anything I have. There's nothing I can do.

What shit? NOOBSHIT ! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

p/s: just venting anger la

Ohman, another unlucky month ahead. Goodluck to myself. Everything and anything is just ain't going my way. But well, after that fight at home, everything somehow is going smoothly again. Shall see how long can it last this time. But I am not alright with myself. Even if i decided to give up, things will still be the same. Oh dear, I am damn depress now. Lose my badge, argh, everything la!

seven colours, seven wishes,
repeating the same thing seven times,
I will trust miracle this time
bless me

sarang hae yo