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ohman, wtf had happen to this world.

Believe it or not.

Play safe better

But that's just so unfair.

Perhaps this is just the beginning of my retribution

Ah.. Can my leg please recover faster!?

It's making my days so uncomfortable. Firstly, I will take 15 minutes to walk from my home to the MRT station when i usually took less than 10 mins. Secondly, I am walking like a snail and I hate climbing stairs. Thirdly, the brownish medicine kept staining my bedsheet. LASTLY,

IT STINKS!

The smell makes me want to poo man. And I am going to miss training the whole week just because of it. It's just one slight mistake and cause like a week of suffering. I know there are people worst than me who fractured the whole leg when mine is just a minor sprain. But competition is in less than 10 days time and my leg is not recovering as fast as expected. Luckily, I have a lovely grandmother who made some tonics as bitter as my leg. Hope I can walk better tomorrow.

One more thing, I have a gigantic ulcer on my lips. It looks as if a violent kisser actually bit my lips. It hurts like dont know what and I look like some octopus with swllen lips lor. Plus two ulcer on my toungue. AND A BIG GREEN BRUISE ON MY LEFT CHEEK! And it somehow un-shape my face, it looks slightly unbalance. Now i look more like an alien. uhhuh.

Pearlyn, I never forget your birthday lah. Happy belated birthday! 14th already ah, streaming year, work hard hor.

Now, I have a decision to make.

Congratulation Pamela, you just twisted your ankle two weeks before the west zone starts.

Today, nana, yanna and jessie went to my house to watch chucky. Had some sort of cat fight and i kick, jessie flew to the ground and the next thing i know i am so dead. After that went to meet faith and co at bangkit basketball court. So we changed into our shoes, and started warming up. And when I was getting a rebound, I landed on jianming's leg and my ankle just start twisting to the left, to the right. And I started hitting the ground. I can't tell myself to get up and start jumping it hurts like shit.

I am super scared that I may not be able to jump during west zone. How suay, west zone two weeks and i sprain my ankle. I just feel like crying man, What if my leg dont get well in two weeks? What if my leg made me unable to jump ball? What if what if what if what iF.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Damn it. I am sorry team.

My holidays are simple so duper boring and hectic. Five days of friendly plus very tiring training. On monday, we vs Dunman. Tuesday mad cow training. Wednesday we vs manjusri. Today, we vs Deyi and tomorrow vs raffles, So tiring. Just two more weeks and my zonal is gonna start, I am seriously very worried.

And I need a full body massage now. My brain is so stress with all my so many undone homework. My neck is aching, i accidentally slept the whole night on my bolster instead of my pillow. My arm is aching with that yellow posoinous ball. My back is aching and it's killing me. My thighs just surrendered to me. My knee is falling apart. My ankle is gonna give me another problem soon. AHHHHH.. So tiring.

I realise that the older i grow, the lamer I get. It's either my level of lameness increase or the people around me became more not lame anymore or I am all along lame and people are just tolerating. Ok, whatever. I shall be some very asshole freak who just don't lame around. Perhaps keeping quiet is the best solution lah.

Ok, whatever bye

Alright, just ignore my previous post. Just venting my anger. Maybe I am just so useless.. Instead of finding a solution and never give up, i chose to sit behind the computer and start venting my anger and make myself feel miserable. I am sorry that I did not stand up and be confident to talk to the whole team together with the other sec twos.

Everything is back to normal and the 6 of the sec twos are going to work hand in hand to help this team go all the way to the nationals top four. COME ON C GIRLS, WE CAN DO IT!. We are not going to make this ussbbg be seperated again, And there's no such thing call 'MYSELF' in ussbbg. We are a whole! No matter if you are a sec 1 or a sec 2 we are still a team and there'll not be any cold wall in between us!

cause we a team,

cause we are a whole

cause i love ussbbg

cause all of you love ussbbg.

Believe in yourself, believe in this team, we are going to wear our jersey all the way to the top. Read properly already?

CAUSE WE ARE A TEAM CAUSE WE ARE USSBBG! understand !!

Nana: Thanks for bringing us back together, and sacrifice your bbq and spend your time to talk things out for us today. Although you are so fierce or criticise me sometimes, i understand that you are trying to make me learn to not be so irritating sometimes. Whatever you said seriously do wake me up and know what's the right thing to do at the right time. You never fail to guide us well in c div last year. And this year, you never forget about us and continue helping us when we are already seniors in the c div team. Although you scold me the most, but i still love nana.

Xiaofei: Thanks for helping us talk to the sec ones and brining the c div back. Maybe this is a batch that's hard to control or we are not strong enough to control them. Although you have your own O level, your own b div and your personal stuffs to settle, you never even forget about us. We are really touched by that. But felt guilty at the same time for bringing this problem to you. You sacrifices so much and I just thought of giving up on this whole team. I am really sorry. USSBBG will never ever break up again, i promise. No matter what happen, No one is gonna be neglected. No matter how irritating you find me, I still love Xiaofei.

Both: You two are the best captain I have ever seen.

Diane & Jessie: From now, no one is allowed to interfere into our friendship and we are not going to let a single guy or whoever to break us up again. Cause It's a three person story, And everyone plays a part of it.

We cry because we treasure this friendship

We cry because we want to be back again

We cry because we are sorry

We cry because we love.

That's the threesome

HAPPY BELATED FLY MOLLY XAVERIA MO(MOK) XIAOFEI

weee~ today is the don't know how many 13th friday. Some very suay thing that I heard:
First, I tried throwing the ball to hit the ceiling and after it hit the ceiling, it hit DIRECTLY on poor janice.
Secondly, heard from racheal that some netball girls, drank sweetalk inside the MRT station and was fine $500 dollars.
Thirdly, chased yelicia and I missed a step and my ankle just twist to the left.

SUPER SUAY LAH.

Had a workshop in the morning and it's call 'Find your diamond' same class as janice. And the first thing the coaches introduce us the workshop, Janice was like " Where's the diamond ah?"

Well, the workshop is very good. It gave us confidence and motivated us. The examples are so touching. Want to cry already. "Even if you are left with nothing, you must still love yourself and believe in yourself" One example is,

There's a man who's lock in the refrigerator box and all his other collegues had already gone home. And he just kept thinking that he is going to get frozen to death and he is going to die. He just kept telling himself that he is going to die.
Ther next day, the police open the refrigerator and found him dead inside. It is said that he is frozen to death. But.. the very amazing thing the police found out was... the air-con was NOT EVEN ON!.

After that we have some cyber addiction and cyber bullying talk. Quite boring though. However some stories are rather interesting. Went back class and got back my report slip. I never fail anything! But deprove alot lah. L1R4 14 already. R5 no need say already lah. Nvm, will work harder for mid year.

After that had training FROM 1.50-5.00 ok ! crazy already. After that celebrated Xiaofei's birthday. Of course got cake fight and the cake IS SUPER creamy lor! Confirm have pimples coming out already. HAIYA !
Went mac to eat, ate fries only lah. And we are like making a hell lot of noise. BECAUSE OF THAT PEARLYN LAH ! keep laughing and pulling my pants, and the mac auntie was like "after you eat finish can you leave? there's other customer need the seat." AND IT'S LIKE "halo, aren't we customer too? and the table beside us,( olivia,xiaofei,yelicia,lishan) is still eating and we are like somehow talking to them and she chase us out. Whatever.

Went lot one look for mother and ate at some hong kong cafe place. Can save money mah. Than went to look for my long wanting black plain hoodie. AND.. I went to bosini and saw the reversable hoodie, super nice lor ! the material is good, not very thick and it's so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~ and guess what? after discount $80 dollars hor. mai siao siao. I AM GOING TO SAVE UP AND BRING IT HOME ! i want i want i want lah. HAHA.

Not a good month, march don't rock, it started off with so many unhappiness.
I lost my badge for the THIRD day!

B girls lost today, it's damn close. But the last minute was magical, all of you did your best. Good luck for nationals, nothing is impossible:D
Well, it's really close today, it's so heart wrenching to see you girls cry. Ohman, i am so afraid of my zonals now. ahhh..


Should I continue? or should I just forget about it?
hai..

I am angry with myself
I am irritated with myself
I am annoying myself
I am very disappointed in myself

Ahhhhh.. I just don't feel right, I dont feel the sense of belonging. I worked like mad on my studies and what the shit did I get? damn freaking bad results? noobshit. best subject, CHINESE. with the pathetic score of 62.2. Study like mad cow for history. end up what shit? 50% alright! argh! maths? all the way from 10th storey building drop down to Basement 1 ! I am so unhappy !

I WANNA SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Second day I lose my badge, I STILL CAN'T FIND MY BADGE !
bad results,
bad attitude,
bad character.


Ahhhhhhhhhhh.. I am losing everything and anything I have. There's nothing I can do.

What shit? NOOBSHIT ! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

p/s: just venting anger la

Ohman, another unlucky month ahead. Goodluck to myself. Everything and anything is just ain't going my way. But well, after that fight at home, everything somehow is going smoothly again. Shall see how long can it last this time. But I am not alright with myself. Even if i decided to give up, things will still be the same. Oh dear, I am damn depress now. Lose my badge, argh, everything la!

seven colours, seven wishes,
repeating the same thing seven times,
I will trust miracle this time
bless me

sarang hae yo

Grrr.. I just feel like walking out of this damn damn damn hell ! It's not as simple as what all of you think. It sucks big time! ahhh.. Yaya, all of you can just say how bad am I to say F*** this "family". But have you ever thought how I feel? have you all ever thought the angriness that i get !? Have you ever experience this kind of life!?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

What has happen to my world !?

p/s: and that bitch call me an idiot

p/p/s: 5th8th

Had some kind of workshop today. was shock to see ethan there. And.. We wore formal today. yeap, with blazer and tie. First time right. look at my shoes. It's damn funny ok. Because teacher say must wear Those formal kinda shoes. But.. I dont have so last minute, I borrowed my shoe from sarah. Yeah, NCC shoe. It's damn weird ok ! Anw, the workshop was ok lah. Didn't thought of my bed while listening.

And ya, there my mum go again. I just feel like stuffing my socks into her damn mouth. Just because I ate two bread at the dining table, she have to nag at me for 15 minutes. And she start mopping the whole living room and dining area. DAMN FREAKING WEIRD.

SHE'S FREAKING ME OUT !!!

Than just because i forgot to off the water heater, she start say that i don't know how to conserve electricity than want cut my allowance. And the worst thing she say is

" If you don't think this is your house, you can move out anytime"

Isn't this like WTF ! yayaya, I have always be a burden to her, without me, she wouldn't quarrel with my stepdad. Just because she is in the bad mood, she nags for the whole half an hour. #$%^&*!

The worst thing she say is to call me to move out you know ! what's more, it's not the first time anymore, she always wants to put me with my dad so that she can have her own whole sweet time with my stepdad.

Dear mum,

If you happen to read my blog. I want you to read this post. enough means enough. I AM A HUMAN TOO ! I HAVE MY RIGHTS, MY PRIDE! If you don't regards me as a daughter, I mean have you ever put your husband behind me? telling me that me and brian meant so much to you, THAT'S BULLSHIT. telling me that you are trying to give me a happy family, that's nonsense! All i get from him is a black face with a no answer reply everyday ! have you ever thought how long have that been!? let me tell you, it's 2 weeks ok!

I hate your so call family ok !

Lastly, you suck !

From your evil daughter.

Grrr.. I hate this week. yaya, full of tests. well, it's just something everyone have to go through. But this time, i promise, i wont flunk it like how i flunk my first test last year.

Mrs Lee is damn lame today.

Pamela: eh mrs Lee, where's our test paper?

Mrs Lee: Did you watch the reunion dinner last episode yesterday?

Pamela: ya!

Mrs Lee: Last Episode that's why I dont have the time to mark your test papers.

Pamela: -.-

And sadly, I got two demerit points at one go today. Because.. I drew at ravin's and wenyan's hand. So two demerit. Wenyan drew on my hand so one demerit. Ravin's hand got drawn so no demerit. Lameshit.

Still have DNT sketches to rush. bye

Somehow, someway

If we are fated,

Our parellel lines will meet.

I was ALMOST late. I can't actually believe that i am not late actually. Because, i woke up at 7-eleven(7.11am) than. i rush rush rush and dang, 7.28 I am in school.

How cool right.

Lessons are boringggggggggggggggg. Did our hang-glider experiment than played volleyball. And my and hurts like shit!

This time round, I am not going to get angry or throw any vulgarities.

There's nothing I can do to change my life. Nothing at all.

So what if i am angry? the sun still rise from the east and the earth is still revolvig.

However, the disappointment is still there.

I gotta look for all the whys in my head.

Good luck to you Pamela.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

May this chinese year be a great one. (I hope) Look at the bottom right hand corner and see the insane time now. Going visiting later on, but I just can't sleep as I am excited tmr. I have no idea what's that excitement for.

I have been rather weird nowadays. Can anyone tell me why?

Firstly, I will spray deodorant(not on my body) in class for no particular reason.

Secondly, I will get this very weird feeling suddenly. Like feel like listening to sendimental songs and start thinking and imagining stupid stuffs.

I am trying my best not to 'suan' anyone anymore. Cause I find that I can irritate people very easily. I realise that when I open my mouth, most of my words are suan-ing words. So.. that also include in making myself less noisy. Seriously, I need to grow up.

Ohya, last issue. Can you all put down your name instead of passer-by, passerby, passer, anonymous or any unknown thingy. Regardless of what you want to tag. I am seriously going to ignore all these unknown and I mean it.

evletw

Am I just fated to that number?

Almost every post I am complaining, and now, i am still complaining.

FOUR things to complain about:

1. My fingers skin starts to peel again

2. My eyes are so painful

3. My shoulder hurts.

4. I WANT TO PUT BRACES

Issue 1: Remember last year, I put plaster on all my 10 fingers? yeap, it's coming again, i think i am containing some snake skin. As it just peels every year. Peeling is not the main thing. The problem is when the skin peels, the second layer is very sensitive to bacteria. So.. if I play basketball and the court is dirty and that dirty the balls, my fingers will be burning! ahhhh~ any cure?

Issue 2: My eyes had been hurting since saturday. I guess it's because I don't want to waste my daily contact lens on saturday. So.. I went to have my afternoon nap with my contact lens on. And my eyes is super irritating on monday so I did not wear it today. However, it's still very painful. HOW !?

Issue 3: Why my shoulder hurts is because of playing basketball the other day with some people in school. And I can't remember how i actually sprained my right shoulder. It's like it doesn't have any strenght and it will hurt out of the sudden. And it also hurts when I just woke up. HOW !?

Issue 4: I had already made up my mind. For the sake of my future, i decided to put braces. But you know putting on braces cost from $3000++ to $5000++ and you think my mum will come out this kind of money? ahhh.. Can anyone recommend me a place to put braces at a lower cost?

Labels: disappointed.

And the above picture tells it all. I NEED HELPPPPPPPP!

ohya, lime green or some not o dull green have been my new kick this year. weee~ but i still like red lah.

Ok, back to topic. Why am I so in need of help is because this stupid irritating damn *&^%$#@! computer is making me insanely insane! It took me 45 DAMN minutes to get this computer working. It will just show one of the pop out thing and stay there not moving. So.. the computer just cant get started! WTF.

It does not end here, hell number 2 is.. my internet doesn't seems to be working really well. It will just show this 'internet explorer can't open this page'. And it's like damn irritating can!

Anw, I think I should quit the bad habit of going online everyday, seriously it's like wasting quite alot of my time, where it can be use to study. Ok, whatever.

New year wish number 11. GET ME A NEW LAPTOP OR COMPUTER.

This wish is rather impossible, as my computer is UNDER FOURRRRRRR YEARS OF INSTALLMENT and we somehow cheated the company? ok, i don't care.

Argh, can someone please donate me a laptop?

P/s: I don't know why I drew myself oval

Begining of 2008
Mid of 2008
End of 2008

Can spot any different? actually I can't spot any difference. HAHA. just some random pictures lah.

I don't know why I am still missing 2008 so badly. Although 2008 is not a very good year with quite a number of problems coming out.

I shall use this post to recall all the event that happens this year.

First of all, it's my birthday!

Than, it's Diane's Birthday!

Than it was the kelong trip. I really miss kelong trip although I got lots of rashes due to the bed bugs.

And this is kelong.

And this is the scariest kind of toilet i ever seen. it's really scary you know. Because the other side where you do your business, may have crabs there. And you may not even know if one of them had climbed on your butt.

Sunrise

Fishing is so fun! Clear sea water

Beautiful sunset. awww

Than, followed by SLC camp! MACARONI!!!

And then it was beijing trip. And I am missing it like shit! aww... I want to have another team trip.

*for more pictures, check out friendster.

Lastly, it's Japan trip. I miss too

Ahhhhhh. What has happened to me?

Oh my tian. What has happen to me man I am like getting more and more restless and get bored very easily. And I am like trying my best not to give up on things easily. But it's really very hard to tell myself to try.

Grrr.. it's 11.23pm now and I should be snoring on my bed. I just don't feel like sleeping. Am I still in a holiday mood or something? Or is it that something that just kept running through my mind. AHHHH. I am going insane already.

What the hell has happen?