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Guess I'm here this time round to rant.. again. So I got back all of my prelims result this week and I think I sort of screw it. I know 20 points for R5 is not say extremely bad, but it's way more than my target. It's like I always dont deserve what I work hard for. I know that sometimes things don't work out the way we want it even though we work hard for it and all we have to do is to stand up and try again and again and again. But look, talk is cheap, so cheap. It's like the last 32 days I guess. And I'm like at a helpless state. I don't know if it's PMS or what, but my mood is way too dull. I was never like this, I don't like that shag face of mine either. But I'm just too bothered. Guess I've really changed, I was never ever bothered about my results at all..

For now, I'm really considering rejecting my DSA to HCI. A twenty pointer entering HCI is a major joke. It sounds stupid, but I really don't want to enter such elite school and allow people to look down on me. I don't deserve a place there. I really need a break, I don't want to waste my fucking life studying. I really don't want to sound pathetic. But I'm way too helpless..

Sucks big time.

Honey cheesy apple pie

Sup, it's been so long, again. I've actually lost touch of blogging. Oh well, let's see. I've been working kind of hard these few weeks. And I swear I've never work so hard in my entire life, and maybe i'm gonna say that 2 years later.

I fucking miss everyone and everything. It's like I want to go back to 5 months ago, when I'm heavily involve with basketball. I'm happier. I can see all the smiles around me. What's happening now is alittle worst than I've expected. Time is passing way too fast. I'm graduating in 3-4 weeks time. That's it, 10 years of education.

What's worst, I'm only left with 2 months break. Freaking 2 months before I enter college. Ok, college is kind of a big word to me now. Sometimes, I really don't wish to grow up :( sometimes, I hope that I wouldn't lose certain people. Sometimes, I wish I can take things naturally. Sometimes, I wish I'm not Pamela .. Ohwells, wake up Pam.

Y'know at some point in time, you will realise that there are some people who can mean so much to you? #justsaying