You know as time pass, as things changes, as destiny is made, I'm really afraid that I might just lose everyone at the end of the day. But that's something that can't be help. Everyone ought to leave each others life someday. Just someday. So who's gonna stay? I can't predict, I can't do anything.

Just tired.

Ok, I know the above photo is unglam but that's like the best photo that I can use to talk about this special day.

Today is kind of a special day to me. Alright, let me start from the beginning.

So few weeks back, Mr goh met me and told me about us having the need to run this year's sports fiesta due to the lack of councillors. I gotta admit that I was kind of 'sian' at first as we've like step down and we have to do this again. So yeah, I spent 3 nights with Hakim on msn to do the scheldue and everything to make this whole thing run smoothly. It was kind of complicating.

Today is the day, we met super early. And I was really happy to get full attendance despite the fact that we have already stepped down. So we set up everything, finish the frist round of the floorball games and it starts to drizzle. Then heavy downpour. Yeap, everything have to stop and all of us were like 'saving' each other and seeking shelter at the tentage.

So there's this plan made by our principal to move everyone to the assembly area. And hence the councillors started taking the initiatives and we start our so call umbrella parade. It was kind of tiring but it's just awesome. Not exactly fun, but awesome! I don't know what kind of feeling is this, like I'm proud of the councillors, I'm proud to be a councillor.

Everything ended with the last council cheer which was damn bloody loud. Man, I feel like crying after that. It's like a family.

This shall be one of the best days in 2011

Woahhhhhhhhh.. I just realised that I've not land here for a very long time. How's everyone? lol. So.... well, my exams are over. Got back my results and it's like, so far so bad. Damn it, but it's ok, I'm good at comforting myself. Take this as a form of a wake up call, and clarify my doubts. I've got like less than 14 weeks which is seriously very little.

So yeah, I'll be slogging like mad in the last 14 weeks. 3 more months of pain, and I'll get the pride in my O level cert forever. HANG IN THERE EVERYONE!

Yeah, I know I've been away for 10 days. Away from the Internet. Hmm, actually not really, I've been refreshing my twitter timeline over and over again. Though I said I'm gonna quit twitter at the beginning of the week, but look I'm still refreshing the timeline. Lol, social network is a killer. And I'm kind of unhappy at the fact that the world is revolving around technology. And it sort of isolate people from each other. It's like you can go out with a group of friends, who's all holding on to an iphone and exercising their finger.

So for the past few days, I've been observing the changes in me and everything that happened over the years. When we were so much younger, all we want is to be able to grow older, being able to hang out more often. But for now, after I;ve grown much older, I realise that time is so limited and that it is not so easy hanging out anymore. We are afraid of awkward moments, we are doubtful about everything under the sun. That's human's nature right.

I used to be the sort of person who initiates alot, but soon after, I got tired. Back then, was I even like that? The truth is, people around me makes me tired, makes me want to leave. And I gotta confess that I lose people easily, and when I try to get them back, it's alittle too late. And I'm refering to no one in particular. That's the problem with me, I can't accept too much cons in a person. But if I were to put myself in their shoes, I'm no better. Or perhaps even worst. If I were pamela loh's friend, I wouldn't tolerate her. Thinking about that, I'm actually not a very lovable person.

Y'know in the past, I always think that I'm a more matured sort of person as compared to people of my age because of my family background and all the shits I go through. But I'm sooo wrong. It's like this background, makes me so judgemental and I sort of give myself "rules". My family, is so judgemental. They comment about each other and I see that there's dislikeness. I tried not to fall in, but eventually I did. And that at the end of the day, makes me lose people around me. Take my dad as an example, with all the negative remarks, I tried to believe that he's not that sort of person. But because of one minor mistake he made, that made me so mad, I ignored him for 3 months. I tried forgiving, but I can't. And to think about it, it's gonna be even worst in the future.

I used to have a certain limit of pride in myself, but now, I'm giving in and giving in. Because I can't afford to lose people anymore. And I really don't know the actual meaning of getting it back. It's just me you see. I dislike changes. Sometimes I just want have a thought of wasting my life away and be useless, but sometimes I really thought of becoming a useful person. I don't see what's ahead of me.

I feel angry all the time. Every single time. I'm dying to get everything off my chest. I'm dying for a reborn!

Situation change, people change, life changes. Something is bothering me.