Argh, today was just a moodless day. don't wish to elaborate about it.

I wish I was a fisherman who lives near the shore.
And all I have to do is to fish and
enjoy the sunset and sunrise everyday.

It may sound normal, but the mental obstruction I had was a disaster. This feeling is so terrible, very very terrible. I wished I had not started it. I wish I could turn back time and think properly before saying anything. I shouldn't be so naive and think that there will always be a happy ending. And now, everything had reached the point where both of us felt so helpless. I told myself to forget everything. But it's gonna be hard..

Labels: It's easier said than done.

Back to posting here. Well, skipped malay lesson today as if I were to go, I will be wasting 4 hours of my life. And that's stupiddddd. Teacher called my parents so no choice tomorrow cannot skip. Woke up, slack awhile than go bathe than went to meet jessie. Went lamsoon to look for janice and gladys, Diane came down after that. Headed to Choa chu kang primary school. Oh well, primary school kids are getting more and more vulgar arh. And.. I saw Ziyu touching the ring. And I was like Wth! I am taller than her yet I cannot touch! Argh, I am going to practise jumping high already.Played all the way to 6.30 than walk jessie home, than walk gladys home. Janice and I went to buy some snacks than walk home. Yaya, boring day.

I think about everything last night.

Lots of why and how came out.
I don't know if that's correct or wrong.

What I know is that I don't know what to do.
Perhaps, is the phobia or something else?

Am I giving myself more stress and trouble by doing this?
Yaya, question marks after question marks.

Maybe the last word I am going to say is that I am sorry.
I did not get the facts of myself right and I jumped to conclusion.
Argh, I am making myself madd. REAL MAD!

Labels: It's still twirling

I don't even know my feelings well. It's twirling me like mad.
I am confuse and helpless. Why can't my feelings tell me what I really want and what I don't?
Everything is appearing in my mind. I seriously don't know what to do.
Well, i will gain all my strength and give an answer.

I'm sorry, it's still twirling

Morning met jessie at cck station. Waited for diane for like 5 trains ok! Than actually wanted to skip malay lesson. But diane wanted to give the $500 form so followed her. Was scolded for coming to the class late after the break. But nvm, seriously, This lesson is just wasting our very precious time. bare with it, 3 more weeks and it'll be over.

After school went OP to buy a shirt. It was a buy 2 get one free promotion. So me and jessie each one bought one and the free one give diane. So yeah, we have the same shirt and jeans. Than went home to change. Headed down to Bugis than walk to simlim to get diane's PSP. And when we got into the lift, We saw this really handsome angmoh guy. Well, but I am not really that attracted to him. And.. that jessie and diane was like '!!!' man !. siao peh ! In the end, we bought nothing at all after walking up and down for 1 hr? Diane went to eat with her dad. Than the jessie wants to walk around simlim to look for that guy. But I don't want as I will get attracted to the stuffs and burn a big hole in my pocket. End up we walk around bugis street and jessie keep giving those act cute sulking face cos she wants to see that angmoh again -.-
And she keep saying that it's my fault! WHAT A FRIEND RIGHT !

Bought a shirt and a red tie. Same as jessie, and she keeps bugging me in bugis about the guy. After that head down to lot one to meet diane. Went to buy the tickets and the two of them was like keep hua-chi-ing la! Keep talking about that guy than i was like asking them question and they take me as transparent! ok, watch high school Musical 3. Nice ok! very sweet. So touching and their dance moves was wow!

Went to eat long john with Diane while she play her PSP, home after that.

well, read through my blog and saw something that Shazalind wrote in my blog last time. ' There'll be sunshine after rain, laughter after pain'

I find this phrase rather meaningful. It's quite true. Cos it can't be raining all the time and your heart wont will not be broken forever. Anw, there is really no such word call forever. No one knows the future.

Hey, I am here to post again today. Well, what i did today was basically slacking at home. Wanted to go shopping but can't call people out.

Anyway, I am here to blog about a song that I heard when I came across someone's blog. The song is hotel california. And I remember reading and hearing lots of stuff saying that the song is a satanic song. In other words, it's a devil song. So I went to youtube to search if anyone give example of it. And I found one. Quite creepy though.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WodaLlkn2cU&feature=related

Do you believe in ghost? Do you believe that devil really existed? How about black magic? I read a story in Russell lee's book and there is one story about a maid who put some black magic in her madam's food. She can't tolerate being tortured anymore. So she put some black magic in the food that the madam eat. And after eating it, some demon actually possesses the madam and she jump off the building. Do you really believe in it?

Hmm, how about haunted houses? I know about OCH (Old Changi Hospital) and the pasir ris red house being the most haunted bulidings in singapore. Well, all of you must be thinking why didn't the government demolish the builiding. I thought of that too, but they say that the 'ghosts' in it doesn't allow them. And whenever they uses a machine, All the machine will break down. Check this Web out If you want to know more about red house:
http://www.spi.com.sg/information/025/main.htm

That's all for today,
byee

This post is suppose to be yesterday post 261008 post

Ok, was bored today so msged jessie if she wants to go out. Than call diane, discuss discuss than last minute go out. suppose to meet at 3.30 but end up we all reach at 4. Went to eat at pizza hut with diane's family.

Than headed to queensway to buy our sports *** and shoe bag. but we ended up buying sports *** and a jeans :D decided to wear that to beijing. Soooo looking forward la!

Taken during on the bus to queensway.

Reached there and we are looking for colours for our sports *** so while walking, we found a shop which sells cheap and nice jeans. So went to try the jeans and bought it. We don't want to continue searching for colours already. So we went back to the second shop that we went to buy it. After than cabbed down to fareast. Went to the toilet as jessie wants to change her jeans back to her skirt. camwhore in that toilet

Yupp, i said that we cabbed down so that we wont waste time. But.. we are actualyl wasting time at fareast. What we did there was just buying slurpy from 7-eleven and went to the toilet. Ohya, we saw some guys acting as monster or ghost for halloween thingy. There are some weird monster thing there so we took picture with it.

Hesitately, we trained to raffles place. Wanted to drink coffee and enjoy the scenery.

But.. I ended up bringing them to the wrong place. opps, so instead of drinking coffee and enjoying the scenery, we ended up eating char kway teow and fishball noodle at the lau pat sah. So cute right!

Than we are so tired that we do not want to go to the singapore river. Called Xiaofei and ask if we could go to her house. Cabbed down again as we do not want to waste money. Went there to have fashion show. So cool lah ! Took many photos. Shall upload it next time. And I am sneezing so much for the whole day. I used 6 packets of tissue today ok! And I actually spread my flu to Diane and Jessie, sorry arhhh.. Than decided to take the cab home as my eyes and nose are so swollen. Don't want to scare people on the street. hee hee.

Alright,That's all :D

Byeeee

I Went xiaofei's house yesterday to taunt at 1am in the morning. How cool right? talk talk talk than sleep. Than today around 6pm than come back. Mum's not at home till 2moro. don't want to talk much. No mood la.



Wth has happen? Has someone put a curse on us?
this moment was this, next moment was that.
I don't know what exactly happen,
but i know this time round i am going to pretend nothing has happen and do what i want to do.
I am too tired to try again..
Lies and ignorance. enough means enough.
I don't want to care and I don't want to bother.
that's it, bye

Happy 17th birthday brother !

Ok, Today is my brother's 17th birthday. Although he don't know that my blog even existed, I still want to wish him Happy birthday.

I did something damn random for him yesterday. Cause I went to DBS to do some bank thingy and they give me a free goodie bag. So.. I give my brother that as birthday present

In case you can't see what it is writing, It says " Happy birthday Brother, Save up. From your dearest sister. "

Well, of course that was a fake present to let him know how heartless her sister can be. Yeap, The doctor can't find my heart ;) *Random..

Had prize presentation today and while waiting outside the hall, we camwhore and this is one of the random picture:

If you were to take a closer look, this is what you get:

While waiting, we were thinking of buttoning the top button. So.. me and jessie even borrowed shermaine's specs and this is how retarded we lookMADNESS!

Ohya, last but not least, my big black bruise on the wrist. I was bored in class. So I decided to use my creativity and draw this little dude

HOW COOL !

bye!

Today was not as boring~ as yesterday.
well, did not go to school today. Woke up at 9am than go polyclinic see doctor for my heart. Did X-ray and ECR test. everything turns out to be alright :D But if this continue, i need to go to the hospital. God, please don't do this to me. I want to continue living. Will I die so soon? well..

Stupidly, I went for training inspite having a MC. Training was DING DONG. But fun :D After that i changed into my training tee than while i am taking out my jersey, i felt something dry in it. So i took it out and threw it on the floor. And... it started moving. Guess what is it.

After that went to the Donnot wat coffee shop, jiaolian treat us drink than he wants to drive us to yew tee MRT. Than we walk to the carpark. I saw jiaolian's van light on and there is another van beside it. So.. the stupidest thing I did was.. I WENT TO OPEN THE OTHER VAN'S DOOR!. And.. the worst thing was that biru stupidly followed me -.-.

Hey people, i am very very tired now.
Today another boring day la. I don't feel like going to school today. but.. must take the CCAC form and pay the edusave thingy so i come. Than tomorrow got training, so cannot skip school. Thursday last day and it's prize giving. And... my dearest diane actually got highest for a subject! So must go and support her ;)
Today was just sleeping in class and watch initial D. Than after school went yew tee CC play basketball. Play like siao ding dong like that, hit here hit there. haha.
Than I am home now posting. BORING~

Shakespeare says " To be or not to be" is a question.
Perhaps? maybe? yupp

hey pamela diane here
i no u love me wooooooo woooooooo hahas i no dun need tell me i also no
hahas :D
I LOVE PAMELA LOH AND OF COURSE MY SELF AND JESSSSIE WOOOOOO
YAY YAY
got training tml! wooo
pamela how many days ar?
ouh ya finish already
jessie lei? second day woooo
me lei no more already woooooooo
hahas
all rubbish la
pai sei ar
love diane

At my house that day!

Web cam with diane




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