I was browsing through ramona's facebook and I saw all the photos we took as a team. So I went to dig out all the photos we took this year. Though some photos are really unglam, but all the smiles and laughter in it are so genuine. All the moments we had as a team this year just flash through my mind. I remembered the time when I'm told that I didn't enter the west zone team. I really thought of giving up. Despite me not being in the main 12, I still feel the love that my team mates gave me. It then made me realise that it's not about a team of 12 players, but a team of 14 of us. Trying their best not to make me feel left out, getting me involve in the team gathering to discuss about the west zone finals.

Look, it's gonna be November in 2 days time. This is how fast time has past without us realising. As time passes, people leave us, people change. No matter how badly you want things to be like before, it would never be. So for now, I'm gonna treasure these two months together with them before having a new team next year.

Seirously, I miss this team damn badly.

Awww man, that's so sweet!

Boring days, At the moment. I always rant about having training, but now I want it. Something wrong in the head right. Lol. Due to O levels, we are unable to have training. However, I've been spending my days playing badminton for the whole day. Till my arm hurts really badly, so bad that I can't evenn write.

Wasted my day today, woke up early in the morning when it's suppose to be my holiday, get to school and had photoshoot. Then, we're suppose to go balling but went pooling instead. Oh well, BORANG~

Dental appointment tomorrow, and I'm gonna get my PINK braces as I've promise Brian to put the same colour as him. Then, to SAS for friendly match. Tsk, why have friendly on a saturday when there's no school for them!! Tsk tsk tsk.

Now you see it,

Now you don't

Everyone's complaining about the haze and so am I. Damn sumatra for burning their own forest just because they need fertile land and that they have no money to cut down trees. Can't they see that the earth is dying? And now all of us are suffering because of them. Argh, and I can hardly leave house. I need an oxygen tank.

PSI = Please Stop Indonesia. hahahaha

LET'S RUN AWAY TOGETHER.

From reality to somewhere with no worries.

Damn, I can;t bloody get sick now. Have been having diarrhoea and on-off fever since sat. My match is starting this thursday and I'm still not in my best condition :( Oh well, my "holidays" are filled with events almost everyday. Took it in a good way, at least I'm able to keep myself occupied.

Took back 5 papers today, and I'm satisfied with my result. Though is not fantastic, I'm still happy. Especially for my English, no worries. But the worst has yet to come, A maths and Chem paper tomorrow. Anyway, I kind of lose control of myself during meeting today, just couldn't tolerate how inconsiderate people can get. Oh wells, let's hope things will get better and SLC would be a success.

Damn today's haze!

I think I'm a Noob, because honestly speaking, I still can't get over my a maths paper!! Argh, I know it's irritating and lame. But you know.. Sigh. Anyway, to celebrate that exam is over, We went to have sakae Buffet today and I bought myself a book today. I'm a nerd. nah, just kidding. Oh, and I found a link between me and lame. You see, PAMEla and LAME

SLC meeting today and I'm somehow excited for the camp. Gotta enjoy now before I face the devil next year. Oh wells, I think i need more colours to pamelaas. Alright, that's it. Exam's over, time to enjoy. Tmd, I'm still not happy la.

I needa beach, I needa beautiful night sky, I needa make a MAJOR decision, I needa time, I needa get my balling skills back, I needa lose weight, I need my hair to grow( my hairs are dropping as if it's free!),lastly, I need my a maths to at least pass!

Anyhow, I had a really weird dream.

I got owned by A maths, for the very first time. I guess is the pressure I gave to myself. Ever since I entered this class, all i can see is everyone working hard like mad. I tried to slack alittle but somehow, I grew more competitive (not the selfish way). I gave myself pressure, the need to really do well in Maths since my other subjects are just plain crap. This year, a new principal came and we have a new policy. Which is to waste our holiday copying the answer script 10 times for every subject we fail. For that, i studied till wee hours and wake up at 5.30am in somedays.

For today, during my maths paper, my mind went totally blank. For all the effort I put in has gone down the drain. I don't know what's up with me. My hands were trembling, i can't even sketch a proper graph. I swear it was shaking like mad. And just by plotting the points in the last 5 mins, I erase and re-write for 5 damn times. Time's up and I counted a total of 40 marks blank. I left the classroom immediately, I'm speechless and traumatize. Sighhhhhh

Maybe I really need a good break, or i may just go insane.

From what we are told, if we fail a subject, we gotta come back during the holidays to copy the answer script 10 bloody times. Thus, I'm working damn bloody hard so that my holiday won't be wasted. but well, after today, I know I'm most probably going back. Sighhhhhhhhh.

This is how creative my principal can get. In order for us to study hard. Well done. After tmr, 10am, I'm freeeee. Weeee can't wait. Let me think, i think i'm gonna spend my afternoon sleeping peacefully with no nightmares.

I swear exam gives me a nightmare. After studying about WW1, I dreamt that singapore is going through war and I saw a building, my grandmother's HDB block AGAIN, exploding. -.- Then.. Yesterday, I dreamt that I scored 6/30 for my physics MCQ. Plus, i've got lotsa sleepless night. Sigh, This is call examinsomia.

I'm so screwed. I may have to come back during my holidays to copy 10 times of the SS answer sheet. damnnnn. I wasted my time writing an irrelavant point for my essay and end up, I didn't have the time to finish up a 7 marks SBQ. Actually it's not the marks that really matters, it's the fact that I have to waste my holiday to copy the answer sheet IF I fail. Sigh. Damn!

Same day, same month, last year

I don't know if it's me or is it exam.

I've been feeling kinda weird these days.

I miss the past alot.

All those songs just bring me back to the past.

:(

"When we were in our childhood, our mother stands ahead of us to set as an example.

As we grows up and become a teenager, she is always behind her little one, to lend support whenever we need it.

As we grow up to become a matured adult, she starts walking next to you, so that we two can be friends forever.

In short, a mother is always there for her child at each and every stage of our lives. At some point of time in life, every child feels a need of saying thank you to their mother, for all that she has done.

Love it or hate it, she was your first love and will never be gone from your heart. "

- taken from www.randyys.blogspot.com

So true, isn't it?

Why do I kept having nightmares? Violent nightmares. There's this night, I dreamt that I quarrelled with _ _ and he was chasing me, trying to kill me. Then while taking an afternoon nap on fri, I dreamt that Weiyi and I were torturing Liyee. Then, on friday night, I dreamt that I got kidnapped with diane, and Diane was killed? And today, I overslept. My tuition was at 10am but I woke up at 10.45am. Well, it's because I dreamt that someone stole my bike and after awhile, I saw my mum tied to a building, opposite my grandmother's place -.- , together with my bike. I wanted to save her, but I'm afraid that there might be a bomb on her. So I got a policeman to help me instead. haha, What a dream right!

Maybe I did too much evil things. haha, but since when am I evil ? Heehee.

Seriously, what's with my luck these dayssss. On thurs, the weather was damn nice for a swim, but I was too tired. On Friday, I'm all ready for a swim, it started raining.

Today's the worst! Firstly, I went for training in the morning, and one of our warm up was towards the half court line and run backwards. So somehow, I just lose balance, fell backwards and hit my head right on the floor after rolling a few times. Secondly, I was hit by a ball, right on my mouth while doing a lay up. Which eventually cause a huge ulcer on my bottom lip.

Thirdly, my itouch died on me while i was waiting for bus in orchard. Forthly, I missed 3 packed bus and managed to squeeze into the forth one. However, it was very uncomfortable as i was carrying a very heavy bag which contain my shoes, jersey, etc.

Lastly, I met a very irritating taxi driver. After I board the taxi, the uncle told me that he would just drop me by the roadside as he's afraid of knocking into people's car while driving in, then why drive right!! So I wasted my money, and I've to walked in all by myself in the dark !!

Tell me, how unlucky is this!?

It's like no matter how hard I work. You guys would think that I'm a slacker. For goodness sake, you are drowning me. I'm only sec 3! Fuck.

I know I'm not perfect. But at the end of the day, who is?

I kind of like this holiday bcos I've been spending my time wisely. And I didn't wake up in the afternoon, which is a good thing as I'll get grumpy if I woke up late and complain how much time i've wasted sleeping. Anyway,, I'm in an extremely cold war with my mum bcos I simply can't tolerate all the nonsense anymore. Thus, I'm gonna ignore her. FOR REAL. I know it's not very me, but well, I will do it.

Ok, gonna do some MATHing now. This holiday is full of maths. It's like I've got maths exercises, 2009 E maths paper, 2009 A maths paper, 2 tutorial on Emaths assessment and 2 tutorial on A maths assessment. Maths drive me MAD

" A person needs a little Madness, or else they never dare cut the rope and be free " - Nikos kazantzakis.

FML. CAN'T THEY JUST SENSE THAT THEIR DAUGHTER IS BECOMING A NERD !? -.-

... I sew myself shut. My weakness is that I cared too much. My scars reminds me that the past is real. i tear my heart open, just to feel - Papa roach "scars"

Revisiting Ussbbg.bs, reading all the tags all over again. I recalled how close we were, I recalled how much we are committed to our trainings. How much fun we have during each training day. How excited we are for each and every match, every outing. It's like there's a 360 degrees change in everything. I must say, I dread going training. It's never like before, I can't help it but to rant everything. Yes, I'm unhappy at what's going on. There's nothing that could drive me to train hard, to have an aim.

Yeah, perhaps I was just being a busybody all along. I, created the source of unhappiness for myself. Spreading my angriness when I rant. I promise, I will not do it again. It's NOMB. I'll just do my part. Nothing more, nothing less.

I watched this more than 10 times and I still can't stop laughing !

I wanna go to the beach. Those kind of beaches which's unlike sentosa. The kind of beaches with clear seawater, awesome sea breeze and computer graphic night sky. I wanna wanna wanna beach and get barbequed.

pimples outbreak. braceface

:(