I was browsing through ramona's facebook and I saw all the photos we took as a team. So I went to dig out all the photos we took this year. Though some photos are really unglam, but all the smiles and laughter in it are so genuine. All the moments we had as a team this year just flash through my mind. I remembered the time when I'm told that I didn't enter the west zone team. I really thought of giving up. Despite me not being in the main 12, I still feel the love that my team mates gave me. It then made me realise that it's not about a team of 12 players, but a team of 14 of us. Trying their best not to make me feel left out, getting me involve in the team gathering to discuss about the west zone finals.

Look, it's gonna be November in 2 days time. This is how fast time has past without us realising. As time passes, people leave us, people change. No matter how badly you want things to be like before, it would never be. So for now, I'm gonna treasure these two months together with them before having a new team next year.

Seirously, I miss this team damn badly.

Awww man, that's so sweet!

Boring days, At the moment. I always rant about having training, but now I want it. Something wrong in the head right. Lol. Due to O levels, we are unable to have training. However, I've been spending my days playing badminton for the whole day. Till my arm hurts really badly, so bad that I can't evenn write.

Wasted my day today, woke up early in the morning when it's suppose to be my holiday, get to school and had photoshoot. Then, we're suppose to go balling but went pooling instead. Oh well, BORANG~

Dental appointment tomorrow, and I'm gonna get my PINK braces as I've promise Brian to put the same colour as him. Then, to SAS for friendly match. Tsk, why have friendly on a saturday when there's no school for them!! Tsk tsk tsk.

Now you see it,

Now you don't

Everyone's complaining about the haze and so am I. Damn sumatra for burning their own forest just because they need fertile land and that they have no money to cut down trees. Can't they see that the earth is dying? And now all of us are suffering because of them. Argh, and I can hardly leave house. I need an oxygen tank.

PSI = Please Stop Indonesia. hahahaha

LET'S RUN AWAY TOGETHER.

From reality to somewhere with no worries.

Damn, I can;t bloody get sick now. Have been having diarrhoea and on-off fever since sat. My match is starting this thursday and I'm still not in my best condition :( Oh well, my "holidays" are filled with events almost everyday. Took it in a good way, at least I'm able to keep myself occupied.

Took back 5 papers today, and I'm satisfied with my result. Though is not fantastic, I'm still happy. Especially for my English, no worries. But the worst has yet to come, A maths and Chem paper tomorrow. Anyway, I kind of lose control of myself during meeting today, just couldn't tolerate how inconsiderate people can get. Oh wells, let's hope things will get better and SLC would be a success.

Damn today's haze!

I think I'm a Noob, because honestly speaking, I still can't get over my a maths paper!! Argh, I know it's irritating and lame. But you know.. Sigh. Anyway, to celebrate that exam is over, We went to have sakae Buffet today and I bought myself a book today. I'm a nerd. nah, just kidding. Oh, and I found a link between me and lame. You see, PAMEla and LAME

SLC meeting today and I'm somehow excited for the camp. Gotta enjoy now before I face the devil next year. Oh wells, I think i need more colours to pamelaas. Alright, that's it. Exam's over, time to enjoy. Tmd, I'm still not happy la.

I needa beach, I needa beautiful night sky, I needa make a MAJOR decision, I needa time, I needa get my balling skills back, I needa lose weight, I need my hair to grow( my hairs are dropping as if it's free!),lastly, I need my a maths to at least pass!

Anyhow, I had a really weird dream.

I got owned by A maths, for the very first time. I guess is the pressure I gave to myself. Ever since I entered this class, all i can see is everyone working hard like mad. I tried to slack alittle but somehow, I grew more competitive (not the selfish way). I gave myself pressure, the need to really do well in Maths since my other subjects are just plain crap. This year, a new principal came and we have a new policy. Which is to waste our holiday copying the answer script 10 times for every subject we fail. For that, i studied till wee hours and wake up at 5.30am in somedays.

For today, during my maths paper, my mind went totally blank. For all the effort I put in has gone down the drain. I don't know what's up with me. My hands were trembling, i can't even sketch a proper graph. I swear it was shaking like mad. And just by plotting the points in the last 5 mins, I erase and re-write for 5 damn times. Time's up and I counted a total of 40 marks blank. I left the classroom immediately, I'm speechless and traumatize. Sighhhhhh

Maybe I really need a good break, or i may just go insane.

From what we are told, if we fail a subject, we gotta come back during the holidays to copy the answer script 10 bloody times. Thus, I'm working damn bloody hard so that my holiday won't be wasted. but well, after today, I know I'm most probably going back. Sighhhhhhhhh.

This is how creative my principal can get. In order for us to study hard. Well done. After tmr, 10am, I'm freeeee. Weeee can't wait. Let me think, i think i'm gonna spend my afternoon sleeping peacefully with no nightmares.

I swear exam gives me a nightmare. After studying about WW1, I dreamt that singapore is going through war and I saw a building, my grandmother's HDB block AGAIN, exploding. -.- Then.. Yesterday, I dreamt that I scored 6/30 for my physics MCQ. Plus, i've got lotsa sleepless night. Sigh, This is call examinsomia.

I'm so screwed. I may have to come back during my holidays to copy 10 times of the SS answer sheet. damnnnn. I wasted my time writing an irrelavant point for my essay and end up, I didn't have the time to finish up a 7 marks SBQ. Actually it's not the marks that really matters, it's the fact that I have to waste my holiday to copy the answer sheet IF I fail. Sigh. Damn!

Same day, same month, last year

I don't know if it's me or is it exam.

I've been feeling kinda weird these days.

I miss the past alot.

All those songs just bring me back to the past.

:(

"When we were in our childhood, our mother stands ahead of us to set as an example.

As we grows up and become a teenager, she is always behind her little one, to lend support whenever we need it.

As we grow up to become a matured adult, she starts walking next to you, so that we two can be friends forever.

In short, a mother is always there for her child at each and every stage of our lives. At some point of time in life, every child feels a need of saying thank you to their mother, for all that she has done.

Love it or hate it, she was your first love and will never be gone from your heart. "

- taken from www.randyys.blogspot.com

So true, isn't it?

Why do I kept having nightmares? Violent nightmares. There's this night, I dreamt that I quarrelled with _ _ and he was chasing me, trying to kill me. Then while taking an afternoon nap on fri, I dreamt that Weiyi and I were torturing Liyee. Then, on friday night, I dreamt that I got kidnapped with diane, and Diane was killed? And today, I overslept. My tuition was at 10am but I woke up at 10.45am. Well, it's because I dreamt that someone stole my bike and after awhile, I saw my mum tied to a building, opposite my grandmother's place -.- , together with my bike. I wanted to save her, but I'm afraid that there might be a bomb on her. So I got a policeman to help me instead. haha, What a dream right!

Maybe I did too much evil things. haha, but since when am I evil ? Heehee.

Seriously, what's with my luck these dayssss. On thurs, the weather was damn nice for a swim, but I was too tired. On Friday, I'm all ready for a swim, it started raining.

Today's the worst! Firstly, I went for training in the morning, and one of our warm up was towards the half court line and run backwards. So somehow, I just lose balance, fell backwards and hit my head right on the floor after rolling a few times. Secondly, I was hit by a ball, right on my mouth while doing a lay up. Which eventually cause a huge ulcer on my bottom lip.

Thirdly, my itouch died on me while i was waiting for bus in orchard. Forthly, I missed 3 packed bus and managed to squeeze into the forth one. However, it was very uncomfortable as i was carrying a very heavy bag which contain my shoes, jersey, etc.

Lastly, I met a very irritating taxi driver. After I board the taxi, the uncle told me that he would just drop me by the roadside as he's afraid of knocking into people's car while driving in, then why drive right!! So I wasted my money, and I've to walked in all by myself in the dark !!

Tell me, how unlucky is this!?

It's like no matter how hard I work. You guys would think that I'm a slacker. For goodness sake, you are drowning me. I'm only sec 3! Fuck.

I know I'm not perfect. But at the end of the day, who is?

I kind of like this holiday bcos I've been spending my time wisely. And I didn't wake up in the afternoon, which is a good thing as I'll get grumpy if I woke up late and complain how much time i've wasted sleeping. Anyway,, I'm in an extremely cold war with my mum bcos I simply can't tolerate all the nonsense anymore. Thus, I'm gonna ignore her. FOR REAL. I know it's not very me, but well, I will do it.

Ok, gonna do some MATHing now. This holiday is full of maths. It's like I've got maths exercises, 2009 E maths paper, 2009 A maths paper, 2 tutorial on Emaths assessment and 2 tutorial on A maths assessment. Maths drive me MAD

" A person needs a little Madness, or else they never dare cut the rope and be free " - Nikos kazantzakis.

FML. CAN'T THEY JUST SENSE THAT THEIR DAUGHTER IS BECOMING A NERD !? -.-

... I sew myself shut. My weakness is that I cared too much. My scars reminds me that the past is real. i tear my heart open, just to feel - Papa roach "scars"

Revisiting Ussbbg.bs, reading all the tags all over again. I recalled how close we were, I recalled how much we are committed to our trainings. How much fun we have during each training day. How excited we are for each and every match, every outing. It's like there's a 360 degrees change in everything. I must say, I dread going training. It's never like before, I can't help it but to rant everything. Yes, I'm unhappy at what's going on. There's nothing that could drive me to train hard, to have an aim.

Yeah, perhaps I was just being a busybody all along. I, created the source of unhappiness for myself. Spreading my angriness when I rant. I promise, I will not do it again. It's NOMB. I'll just do my part. Nothing more, nothing less.

I watched this more than 10 times and I still can't stop laughing !

I wanna go to the beach. Those kind of beaches which's unlike sentosa. The kind of beaches with clear seawater, awesome sea breeze and computer graphic night sky. I wanna wanna wanna beach and get barbequed.

pimples outbreak. braceface

:(

I'm gonna be a brace face tmr and I'm really excited! I can't wait for that new look. My bro has already survive one week with his braces and he already got 5 ulcers. Sooo good luck to me. And for my colour, I'll take PINK! nah, just MAYBE.

Anww, I dread going training. The moment I see people slacking and you know... I get really pissed off and my mood would just turn damn bloody bad. PMS I know.

Just one day.. Sooon..

Last friday, we went to watch the swimming finals. Gosh, Hungary totally owned. And so, we gotta keep standing up for hungary's national anthemn. Oh, and there's this gold medalist, who is from croatia, is like damnnnnn @#$%^& hahaha, everyone was going crazy over him ! LOOOOL. And yah, the swimmers are really muscular. Is like when I saw this girl, from the back, I thought she was a male ! then when she lift up her head. Ooo wooow. BUILD Man !

Didn't too much photos, we were sitting right at the back :(

CANADA BASKETBALLERS. EEEHAAAA

The belgium guy beside me, ask me " Do you like belgium?" And I gave a damn embarassing reply, which is " YES I LOVE EATING BELGIUM CHOCOLATE! " Paiseh anot.

So yeah, On the 20th-21st August, I went to the Youth Olympic village. Because our school was given a booth in the YOV and I'm suppose to be there to tell them more about bermuda. Honestly, speaking I don't even know where is bermuda. Haha. Anwww, this experience was really aweome. It's seriously a once in a lifetime experience.

For the first time, I met soo many atheles. For the first time, I saw so many caucasians. Handsome one. Heehe, so cheeky. It's really nice meeting them and like talk to them? Hahaha. And I feel really lucky to be part of this. haha.

More photos in facebook. :)

HI MY NEW NAME IS BOGAY LOH.

Loool, for one more week only laa. Shall update on my WCV experience and swimming finals soon.

Argh I dont feel good. I feel like I'm lack of something. Not my teeth. Something else.

Yeap, the yog flame came to our school! It may look simple but this whole thing is awesome. Seriously. Though I complained standing under the hot sun and cheer like an idiot during rehearsal, the actual thing was fantastic! And I'm really proud of Jessie, she's a superstar now. Don't pray pray ah. Haha, and yeah, I saw Lyo and Merly.

If you notice my smile is like so abnormal. It's because I plucked out 4 teeth at one go. Not one BUT 4 ! And I gotta say this, the pain is horrible terrible vegetable. It's so painful that I woke up at 3am for two nights because of the pain and I've been overdosing on pain killer. I'm suppose to take 3 times daily but I ended up taking 6 times ! Seriously, the pain is unbearable. Soo painful that I cried last night. It's horrible. What's more, it's my front tooth that's being pluck out! Anw, I couldn't bear with the pain any longer so I went to visit the dentist and found out that there's infection on my wound. :(

Seriously, Life sucks when I cannot chew anything and my dinners are like plain porridge with soya sauce. How pathetic. And ya, I can't talk properly as well and people can hardly understand me because I can't talk showing my front teeth. You'll want to skip your meal. Hahahaha. Ok I've got enough of ranting I guess.

MY MOTTO : NO PAIN NO GAIN.

Yesterday is nice. Yesterday Marks the 1st anniversary of us staying in our current home. How time flies. I remember my first time moving in. Getting all my stuff at ikea. Haha. So we have a BBQ yesterday to celebrate my mum's, jiakang's and his mum's birthday. BBQ is awesome. LOL. My dad bought 2 cartons of breezer. LOL. So we mahjong whole night and decided to drive to bukit timah for supper at mad 1.30am! Reached home at around 2.30am and continued with Mahjong till 6.30am in the morning!! Everyone was fighting to lose because all of us want to sleep. HAHAHA.

Sucha fun day yesterday. I've enjoying myself soooo much, that I forget to study. -.- Sighh.

Had so much fun with my class for the pass few days. Rehearsing during maths period and after school. We laughed till we went crazy. Haha, and finally, our commitment turns out to be success. I'm happy. really very happy. We got the champion for the performance. And I really enjoyed myself on stage. BIMBO~

Then off to seoul garden to have ur celebration. First time I'm eating seoul garden! Lol, waited for 3 hours just to eat! Had so much fun there too. I think the food made us crazy. Laughed till Jovita cried and i think i trained some abs while laughing. This whole thing is fun, weee~ I'm lovin my class. Haha

In and out of the toilet 5 times. Diarrhoea :( argh, I can't get sick now. Anw I'm looking forward to my RHD performance. Damn bimbo and throw face. But well, Once in a lifetime I'm gonna do it. Why not? Lol.

Ahhh, what's happening to me. I think I'm going crazy. What do I want now. Zzz

Ahhh, I need to breathe. I'm fully packed this whole week and probably the next week. Probably everything will be back to normal by the second week of august. Tired, with 3 rehearsals, presentation, etc. And my throat is still so sore, HOW TO PRESENT?! Later I go out of tune. heehee.

Anyway, I've been listening this song call 'tonight' which I use to sing it almost everyday in 2008 :( And I realised I've abandoned this song. Now I can't get it off my head. Haha. Alright gotta study for my essay now. Bye~

I think I'm suffering from PMS. I don't really get those serious kind but I think it's getting serious now. I get really pissed with very little stuff, like my bro removing my photos from the thumbdrive. And ya, very little stuff that can just upset me. Probably is all the hectic sheldue that makes me frustrated easily. Never ending homework - Project work - Tests - RHS performance - Trainings. Everything will be over in 2 weeks time.

Ok, I gotta chill. Things will get better I guess.

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY PARIS!!

And Paris turns 1 years old today. How time flies, she appears in my life when she's just 3 months old. Like a cute little puppy. Now she's all grown up, but still as timid. How dumb. Firstly, she's afraid of a refrigerator box, then she's afraid of my bicycle, she barks at the ant and chase it but didn't want to kill it. Small little things that amaze me.

Today's just the 1st birthday. MORE TO COME.

Did you hear the super loud thunder last night? I woke up immediately and I thought I was going to die, I was ready for the worst! haha. It was so loud that I could feel my windows shaking and I saw the flashes of lightnings through my curtain. Lol

Anw, today's saturday. WHAT AM I DOING AT HOME!? I wanna go shop shop

I miss 2008 :(

I was going through the photos that I took with USSBBG in 2008. When I was only sec 1, gosh those times were really awesome. I miss it so much more than 2009. Kembagan match/sentosa team outing/t-net tournament/Lijun's birthday @vivo/Cagers match/welcoming of sec ones/West zone finals/national finals/crying badly after National finals/redsports interview @ blk 514/Jiaolian's birthday/xf's cookie surprise/ALL SAS matches!/My birthday BBQ/Team jacket making/BEIJING TRIP!!!!/ Jiaolian's EOY dinner threat.

When I look through these photos, I realise that I use to have centre parting! I just can't stop smiling at those photos that we took. No words could describe how it feels. It just reminds me of all those crazy times. Playing 10 on 10 after training which is like damn crazy, Digging into jiaolian's birthday cake, Wow-ing at SAS, stalking angmoh!!!, filling hundreds of water bombs with Jessie and Diane on my birthday, Being made to do pumpings by NANA, who tries to trick us that we played badly during huayi's match and end up surprising us with a cake!, being force to eat a soup-spoonful of vegetables!, mamasans, LING-XIA-SI DUUUUUUU, Ah, I'm smiling to myself now.

Shall post up the top 15 AWESOME photos.

I dreamt that I scored 40 points in my O level
I dreamt that I scored F9 for my english

I dreamt of ____.

For the sake of passing eng, I'm gonna buy the straits times everyday and read it!

Had a really crappy dream last night. And when I wake up, I can still remember everything.

I dreamt that we have a class outing in Vietnam. We took a plane there, walk around for a few hours and took the plane back unknowingly. We went there without luggage. I took a bus with them, board the plane and realise that I left my itouch charger and itouch in the hotel! Then, we headed to a chalet near pasir ris. And that chalet is mad nice. It's like those in BOF! LOL. Our room is facing the sea! haha, then I made a phone call and chatted. Then we went back to school -.- then I saw one of my class mate wearing SBS uniform driving bus -.-! Then I woke up I think? mad dream.

Met my brother today at Jurong, bought a bag for my dad. Had lunch with my dad before he leaves for thailand and settle down there. He look so much older from the last time I saw him. He slimmed down, he looks fatigue, he don't look as good as last time. Chatted with him and he's laughter was never as genuine. Said goodbye to him at the Mrt station, and all he could say was just goodbye. I said "take care". He didn't bother to reply me. All he said was "bye" and he turn his back and board the train. I could feel that he didn't want to say goodbye.

I'm down, really down. He was the one who took good care of me for the first 12 years of my life. The closest man I can ever have. From seeing him for 365 days a year to probably twice a year. When was the last time I hugged him? When was the last time I said 'I love you daddy'? When was the last time he held my hands? The last time I took a photo with him was when digital camera was not even invented.

Those days where he would send me to school on his pick-up, the days where I would wash his car with him, the days where he would bring us for swimming lessons, the times where we would have holidays in Malaysia. The good damn times before disaster struck us.

I thought I'm able to accept this. 3 years down the road, It's getting worse.

My dieting plan starts yesterday. I've been doing well for the whole day. By spending only 3 bux in school. However when I reached home, my grandpa offered me durians. I can't stop and ate a box. My mum bought peanut choco for me from IR in Sentosa. I can't resist it, I ate it up too :(. There goes my whole day effort. But It's ok, at least I feel better after eating that bar of choco :). Dieting can always start tmr right. Anw, if I don't get sick after eating these junks, then I'm really STRONG! Lol.

Just hope I won't give in again.

I managed to negotiate with Mr teo and not go for last minute english remedial and also, managed to cancel my tuition. Caught Eclipse with Janice and Jessie. Not tooo bad, just alittle slow. I love how edward treats Bella. Sweet daooooooooooo. But Jacob looks hotter. Psst. For now, I feel like I belong to the cullen. I'm a vampire.

I'm gonna go on a diet before I take my height and weight next week

Unlucky day

Today is a special day. Because it's a very unlucky day, in terms of traffic. Had YOG WCV host training today at NIE. Wake up as early as 6.30am, headed to school then to NIE. Co-incidentally, Ethon was the trainer of the day. Overall this whole thing was indeed very helpful. Looking forward to seeing those athlete in the Yog Village. Haha.



And then, my nightmare starts. I have a match at 5.30pm. I know i'll be late so i left the place at around 5.15pm and went to wait for the bus. I alighted at some place, then intend to take a cab as I saw alot of cab when I alighted. But after I cross, no cab in sight. Then, 10-20 mins later, two cab arrives. I told the first driver that I'm going aljunied and he rejected me, and the other cab went away. 20 mins later, I saw a cab again. This time, the cab was at a different lane, therefor it can't stop for me. 10 mins later, finally the cab arrive. Entered the cab and realise that PIE HAD AN ACCIDENT.! TRAFFIC JAM! GG. On my way there, the game ended -.-. So I went there just to change my Jersey and take the train. Lame or what. How dumb right. LOL.



Headed to buona vista and took a cab to turf city to meet my grandparents, aunts, uncles and everyone for dinner. So yummy. Lol. So for today, I gave 30 bux to the taxi. In these two weeks, I spent ALMOST 100 bux on cab. Nice one.

Janice turns 15! FINALLY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE ONG EH BOSS. FINALLY, You've enter 15 years old and is no longer the only 14 among us. Anw, the photo above is taken on your 14th birthday! Loool. Ok, may all your 11:11 come true.

Ah, what a boring day. It's a non-training friday which only happen once in a blue moon. And yet, I wasted it by staying at home and have tuition. Tell me nice anot.

I've been eating like there's no tomorrow. And yesterday, I stood on the weighing machine and BOOMZ. Scare me, gosh I'm afraid that I might be over weight! Like seriously, and we will be taking our height and weight in 2 weeks time! Gonna go on a diet.

Ialwaysaythatitwouldbethelasttime

thenexttime,iwillfindexcusestodoitagain.

WHY

Today in class, Reitian and I was talking about the world ending in 2012. Which I think it's kinda true? I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE LA, HAIYO. But.. according to the bible (I think), from what reitian told me. It says that the world will end when, there's alot of natural disasters, when humans go crazy and when there are wars. And all these signs are happening. Earthquakes, floods etc. People going crazy, killing little kids in schools. And Korea side showing signs of war.
If it's written long ago and it's happening now. Is this coincidence? I hope so. I DONT WANT TO DIE SO YOUNG! Ahhhhh.. I still want to celebrate my 21st birthday! I still want to do sooooo many things! Hahaha.

I think time is passing really fast. Olivia is taking her o's soon. And next year is my turn. And she'll be legal age! Can you imagine that?! a moment ago I thought I was just sec 1. HAHA. Young and innocent*. The next moment I know, I'm taking my O's (next year). Then after saying time passes so fast for a few more years, I'm already grown up. 10-13 years down the road (if 2012 is a lie), we will be bringing our kids out and our kids will make friends. Hahaha, I think i'm thinking too much. But well, it's true isn't it?

Anw, my parents were rather lame just now.

Dad: Peter owns a car. What is the name of the car
Me: How I know.
Mum: WHAT.... ... ... is the name of the car.

LOL