After a night of thinking and a few days of considering, I told myself, enough is enough. I've been torturing myself for almost 2 years.

It's time to put a stop to everything.

This can't continue.

It's gonna be tough, but this is it.

Anw, I've an awesome day with my parents today :D

I am so dependent and I don't like it.

I just feel like putting everything aside.

Who am I?

Chicken

Haha, my previous post sounds so chicken. Loool, yeah, I was kinda scared last night that it might be some spirit or what. *touchwood* haha, but i talked to olivia about it and she was like telling me that she met this too and the sequence of events are also the same. LOL.

Alright, I've got chem test tmr and guess what. I'm doing my maths book. Lol. Shall start on my chem now.

Oh my I just met the freakiest person on msn! Ok, so it's this normal stranger. Who suddenly talk to me. So she claim that she's a girl. So I was kinda like alight with it, since it's not some Tiko who looks for xiao mei mei. So I replied her. You know, it can be some msn-pal or what. Because I remembered having one from London the other time. So I thought is ok! Ok, so this is our conver.

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

Needs a down to earth guy

Pamela says:

who are you?

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

hey

Pamela says:

who are you?

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

i'm 21/f your a male right?

Pamela says:

nope. I'm a female. LOOOL

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

nice, I just got off work and finally got some time to relax which site did i msg you from again?

Pamela says:

huh? you added me?

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

I know a way we can chat and have a better time.. do you cam?

Pamela says:

you mean webcam?

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

Well i don't do yahoo cam or any other cam because i have been recorded before... But i do know one site you can watch me on cam, that assures me no one records...

Pamela says:

ohh, intro yourself first ? lol

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

I mean... Do you want to see me on my cam?

Pamela says:

how bout a brief intro of yourself first/

?

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

Ok go to (website to the webcam place thingy which has those lrub lurb stuff) accept the invite on the page baby

Pamela says:

i dont see you

lol

BrookePanowicz1836@hotmail.com says:

sweet, fill out the info ur info.. i can not wait for you to see me baby let me find something nice to wear

And obviously after that, I ignored her. Isn't this freaky? loool. First, I'm afraid that this is not a human (something else you know?), because 1836 may be her date of birth, and she didn't want to be recorded down because she is not a human. Secondly, she may be some Lesbians, who are just too desperate for love. Thirdly, she use to nudge me last time after she added me, but I ignored, and just replied her today. Forthly, she doesn't have a FACEBOOK! ok, not a very good reason though.

Please please please do not add the email add. Be a nice person ok. And.. I've remove the website incase I spoils her reputation.

Influenza

Everyone is falling sick. And I was praying that I will not get sick. But after training just now, I feel sooo tired and when I reach home, my nose just kept dripping those disgusting liquid. Gross. I can't skip school this two weeks, test week. Because I did badly for my previous ones. So yeah, I've gotta take these testssss. Sianz.

Today training was a torture. Totally torturing, at first gotta run 100 rounds but cut off to 25. Then we've gotta run around the field and be back by 100s. And of course many other torturing sutffs before that. My knees almost gave up on me

Sigh, I've gotta study. But the flu is killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Oh btw, Paris is 7 months old yesterday. That's soooo fast! Now she is like frigging tall already.
Just kept thinking of those times. How long ago was that?
Alright, bye

Mental Attack To Healthy Students

I think the internet is the most distracting stuff in the whole universe (for me). I know I've gotta study, I can't control. haha, ok whatever. I spend my day sleeping. And even didn't answer my tuition's teacher call as I did not do my homework. So I called back with a sleepy tone, Muahaha. I've gotta brains.
I wanna hear those three words again. Cos it made me wanna die.
Alright bye.

Moonwalk

Hey people, training was super duper uper fun today. Laughed and went crazy. So much that my throat went totally dry and I finally shut up. Stayed back for awhile and home. Oh, and I am learning moonwalk. hahahaha. Damn retarded. Suddenly got the urge to, so I put on my socks and start looking for tutorial in Youtube. And it worked! So I kinda get the idea? HAHAHAHA, but am still very stiff though. Anw, I wore my socks to my parents and bro's room to show them my 'moonwalk' and here are the comments.

Brother: WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO? IT'S NOT EVEN MOONWALK -.-
Father: Okok, I think I get the idea of what you are doing
Mother: eh I lend you my bathroom slipper la, more slippery.

So how? what do you think? HAHAHAHAHAHA

Alright, good night. My sister's keeper. (Y)

It's the second day of the weekend. and also the last day. zzz. In these two days, I have not done anything that is related to studies. Maybe yes? Is reading included? HAHA. Yeah, I have been reading the book my sister's keeper. It's so nice.

Well, I went to my aunt's house today and went to play pool with Jiakang and Jiaqi. I managed to cheat on my age though. Went home and read again. Sucha good girl worxzs. And I have not touch a single a work! Sianzzzz.

Ok, I'm going to study hard from tomorrow onwards. And I am going to score an A for my chinese. haha, Just kidding

bye

MUST WATCH

Oh my people, You've gotta watch this. This is just too creative and fantastic.

BOOMZ!

How many 100 days?

Woo 3 days after the CNY break and it's weekend again. I love weekends. haha. Woke up at 5am plus because I felt some liquid in my nose. So I sat up and blood starts flowing down. Yeah, my nose have been bleeding nowadays. Like 4 times in a week? That's alittle too much, It's been long since my nose bleed.

So lessons were not so boring today, visited the dentist and got the form for my braces. Now is just waiting for my mum and the person who's paying to acknowledge it.

Training was bad? I don't know what happen, everyone's mood just went bad. So bad that there's silence, and even coach knows that we are weird today. Lol, it's ok, there's still monday. Went to eat at cafe lobby today and Jessie said something which made me smack her.

*I was buying food*
Jessie: hey pretty babe
Me: yes? *bimbotic*
Jessie: I'm blind

Alright, what an ass.
Bye

I can't let you see what you mean to me - 98 degrees

Have you ever want something so badly?

I want so many things, so badly.

Still

It's the third day of CNY and I shall mark it as the end of the gambling season. Hmm, overall I won I guess? Like finally, after all these years of losing. Haha, so I woke up at insanely 9.47am. But well, I'm suppose to meet the girls at 10am. And of couse, I'm late. So met up with Xiaofei and Biru before heading to Olivia's house to bainian. Then, we start our gambling den. From like 11 to 4pm! How poweful can we get. Wanted to play pool at Cck stadium but we got cheated. There's no pool table there. End up, we went to the field and slack away. haha, went my aunt's house after that to visit her dog. Oh my, so cute. It's a Schitzu!

Alright, school's starting tmr, And I've not done a single bit of my hw. I don't intend to do it today, I'm tired. Shall do it tmr.
Istillwantyou.that2particularnumber

I am too lazy to upload the rest of the photos. They are in fb. lol

Anw, CNY was very fun. Ok, so during day one, my relatives came, did some catching up, steamboat with them and we went to another relative's house after that. Then, went to my uncle's house where we played mahjong and poker. haha, I won 16 bucks I think. Play and play.

Then, brian and I decided to stay for the night.So peggy, brian and I went crazy. Like totally. Haha. They wanted to go clubbing, but I'm underaged. So they decided to stay at home with me. So we drank some alcohol and went alittle out of control. We offed the lights and start out rooming (club= clubbing/room= rooming). Haha, lay on the bed for awhile, and went to catch a movie at around 2.30am. Watched the Lightning thief, the show is nice. And percy Jackson is soooo handsome!!! It's so nice that I didn't doze off when I was watching the show. Haha

Took a cab home at around 4am and when we reached home, we realise that both of us didnt bring the house keys out!! So we climbed the gate and went in. But the door is locked! So we had to stay outside, and my brother needs the toilet urgently. hahahaha. It's really torturous, because paris can't sit still and the mosquito out there bit me like 10++ times on my legs. We sat on the table outside and waited. Then, my auntie woke up at 6am and open the door for us. Phew.

Second day, woke up at around 2pm. And went to my popo's house. And I lost 20 bucks in poker. Lol, btw, it's a good year for the chickens. My grandfather won like more than 60 bucks on the first day. And my uncle who's born in the year of the chicken won almost 100 bucks today! Haha. Went to meet Jessie after that to watch 'The Valentine'. Not too bad, kinda funny. Haha, bought some things to eat, waited for her mother and went home.

Alright, visiting again tmr.

Good night

HAPPY CNY AND VALENTINES DAY !

Woo~ I am not so excited about CNY. haha, lamee. Anw, new year's eve was a great day with family. Oh well, woke up yesterday, and went for a haircut. Woo~ I love my new hair, because no more concave. which means no more thick thick hair. Went home, bathed paris with my brother. It was my first time, and it's kinda nice, esp getting myself all wet. Went to have reunion dinner at some restaurant and the food is like oh-so-yummy. Went back home and played mahjong, kept laughing. Lost $5.70 though.

Alright, today's gonna be nice i guess? I've already dress myself up and am waiting for the guests to arrive. Goodluck to all the young gamblers. Haha. Btw, to all the pigs out there, Red is our auspicious colour. lol

Bye

Ah, I'm so tired now. After a day of schooling, balling. eating. table-tennis-ing, pooling, pingpong-ing, poker card-ing. Went Eechian's condo after balling. It was frigging fun. we played table tennis and was laughing like siaoo. Totally roll on the floor. Played from 5pm to 11pm. hahaha

CNY eve tmr. Reunion dinner. Wee~ Too bad my aunt ain't coming back from taiwan and the other aunt went overseas for holiday. So it's gonna be quite different and empty i guess? lol.

Can't wait for Mahjong. Wooohoo~

Alright, I'm very tired now.
valentinessss. :D i wanna
Bye

Oh well, today, I've got my partner's name on my fore head. Know why? She use the chop which has her name on it and chop it on my arm. Then.. I felt tired, so my head was on my arm like those sleeping position. And when I woke up, my forehead has her name! Like wthh, can't stop laughing. lol.

Met Yvonne after school, she visited paris and bought a bone for her to prevent her from biting people. Thanks yvonne :D When to play ball with yvonne, Janice and Olivia after that. Nice gameS.

Oh man, I can't wait for nationals to start! Which is like in a month time -.-

Oh, And why is Chinese New year on Valentines' day! Argh, actually it doesn't matter to me, Just another day to prank people. Hahaha, and my brother and I decided to put a fake love letter and a rose in my letter box and give it to my mum, acting as a secret admirer. Heehee. quite lame though.

Alright, that's all. I've got an essay to rush. Owing teacher homework before CNY is NOT AUSPICIOUS!!

Haha, I know I'm posting again. Just felt like it. Anww, My bag is sold. Muahahaha. My mum almost killed me when she found out that I bought another bag even before I sold this bag. Luckily, it's really sold, haha.

Didn't go to school today, having flu since yesterday, Don't want to suffer in school. Stayed at home to do some studying. Actually not really studying la. Just did some work and read some weird book. Met up with xf for lunch at pastamania. Jc uniform, lool. Am gonna study hard and wear a nicer uniform man! lol, it's only the beginning of sec 3 -.

Alright bye

FOR SALE!

Hey people, I'm selling my nike bag.

Bought at 72$ during a sale.

Selling at $60

Perfect Condition.

Almost brand new actually. haha.

Tag if interested kkkkk

Thanks :D

Explosion

I'm so tired now. After training. My whole body is aching like nobody's business. I did badly for most of my tests. I failed my Chinese. Physics and Chem may fail. Hist and Eng border line. Looool. It's only the beginning. Alright, I'm very tired nowwwww.

I thought of not blogging anymore. I don;t know why. Lol. This may be my last post yeah. MAY MAY MAY MAY!

Opportunity

Know what? I did badly for my hist test. Lol. And I;m a super unlucky gal today. It's regarding my chinese test. I lost 10 marks in one of the category because it's like those can choose words then must match kind. So in the 10 words they gave, I only know how to read one. So yeah, all the others. GONE. And at the compre part, I don't know how to read two question which adds up to 10 marks. I manage to find the same words in the passage and was copying it. Suddenly, my pen ran out of ink! And I realise that I've written the wrong thing down! So I look for another pen and start cancelling. By then, time's up. Nice.

Ccac meeting after that. Kinda shock and disappointed but glad that something is done. Gym duties after. Two tests tmr, and I;m kinda ready? Gotta do alittle more on physics and I;m ready. Ok, maybe not. Surprises are everywhere.

Marie Digby

Oh my, I;m so into Marie Digby. Her voice is boomz. I like :D Haha. Yeah, my playlist is full of her songs. You should listen, it's nice (to me). Haha. Alright, I know I shouldn't be blogging now, I have like so many to study for Chinese test tmr.

Oh btw, I somehow screwed my history paper. I memorised 5 pargraphs of my essay and only remembered half a paragraph per paragraph. But luckily treaty of versailles came out, If not i'll be dead already.

Alright bye. My thighs are getting more painful after training. Yeah, that split. -.-

Sigh, those msges.